I’ve had a number of responses to the quest for guest bloggers for my weekly Twenty Something Advice series.
This guest post was written by a 20SB who blogs at Nothing to Show But This Brand New Tattoo
I’m a middle aged woman trapped in a twenty-seven year olds body. I go
to bed around 10pm each night and wake up throughout the night with
to-do lists running through my head. I work in a fast paced office
managing large projects for public safety agencies throughout the
southeast. I actively participate in several civic organizations and
co-chair a youth organization for young women. I am a mother, wife,
sister, daughter, and friend.
Seven years ago, my life didn’t seem to be destined for this path.
At twenty years old I imagined myself going to college, marrying a
rich man, and having a house full of babies…sometime around 35. I
further imagined myself enjoying every minute of my twenties as though
I was on a decade long series of an MTV Spring Break show.
My best friend’s and I enjoyed night after night of parties, clubs,
alcohol and boyfriends. We were never going to be old married women
before sowing our proverbial oats. I learned quickly - "never say
never".
Two years into my twenties I found myself unmarried and pregnant. I
tossed around the options before me for what seemed like forever. I
wasn’t open to abortion. I’ll forever take a pro-life stance for
myself, and pro-choice for all other women. I had recently witnessed
my very best friend give her first born up for adoption 10 months
prior to my son’s birth. I knew this wasn’t an option for me. I
vaguely remember considering a "shot-gun" wedding however, that idea
was tossed aside very quickly.
Four months after my son was born, he passed away while I was at work.
At twenty-two years old I was a grieving mother.
"If you had the foresight to know how the end would be, would you
have changed your mind?"
My friend J. was twenty-one years old when she found out she was
pregnant. She did not have the means to offer a child the life they
honestly deserve. She was 22 by the time the adoption papers were
signed. The court order said she was to receive pictures and letters
of her son until he was five years old. She received the first
birthday photo and never heard another word from the adoptive parents.
Now she occasionally cry’s herself to sleep over the boy she’ll never
know.
"If you knew how it would turn out, would you have changed your mind?"
My friend C. was a 25 year old college graduate working in a
successful law firm three years ago. She was offered a position for a
small software company that seemed like a dream come true. The hours,
benefits, and salary were exactly what she was looking for. She took
the position and instantly made lasting relationships with her
co-workers. Six months into her employment, she was laid off. Suddenly
her world was filled with anxiety and stress. The exact reasons she
wanted out of the law firm.
"If you knew what would happen, would you have taken the chance?"
Each of us will spend most of our twenties trying to figure out this
thing called "Life". Choices, options and decisions will be thrown at
us. Mistakes, misfortune, and horrible outcomes will likely result
from even the best laid plans. The idea isn’t to duck or dodge the
choices. Indecision is worse than the wrong decision.
My advice to all twenty-something’s is simple – Think long and hard
about all of life’s options. Second guess yourself, always. In the
end, once you have come to a final decision – Have no regrets.
I think this is great advice for people of all ages. Often times we spend more time beating ourselves up over a decision than we do making the decision up front. I’m reminded of the cliche "what’s done is done." Thank you for sharing your words of wisdom with us.
Name: Alison Sudol aka A Fine Frenzy
